Comparison Kills Contentment

“No one makes you feel inferior without your consent.” Eleanor Roosevelt

When I knew I wanted to write on this subject, I was a little intimidated. For good reason, I believe.

To uncover and call out all the destructive forms of “comparison” in all its layers and intricacies? That’s a big task to take on, for anyone. But out of all the things we need to address to ourselves, comparison is the elephant in the room. So, here we are.

Let’s start with a little bit of reflection. How exactly do you think comparison has affected your life lately?

You are certainly not alone if the only thing comparison contributes to your life is mostly negative. Feelings of discontent, jealousy, unworthiness, and sadness often stem from when we ourselves compare our behind the scenes moments to the social media highlight reels of another.

So, why exactly do we continue to compare if it has such awful consequences?

Well, first off, because it’s easy. It’s the most second nature thing that we can do. We are always wondering how we rank with people. But, again…it would be so much easier if we didn’t concern ourselves with the constant need to be best. Why do we do it?

Is it because we feel our worth somehow increases if we have the perfect hair, the perfect teeth, the perfect job, the perfect home? Is that why we idealize those we feel do have all those things and more? Do we really think that’s the end all of living? Or is life really about who you are, first and fore most?

It’s easy to say to yourself, “yes! Life is about who you are on the inside, not the outside.” But, when it comes down to the way we live? We contradict ourselves completely, by glorifying any well dressed, rich, and beautiful person like they aren’t entirely as human as we are.

The thing is, if we base our worth on feelings of worth, we will always be on a see-saw of emotions. We will never have a firm foundation of identity and we will never grasp our real worth.

So how are we going to address this comparison monster?

By getting to the heart of comparison, and debunking every little lie it whispers in your ear.

The perfection illusion

The people we compare ourselves to seem to have it all. At least, all that we think we are lacking. Whether that be the looks we think we don’t live up to, or the travel photography we wish we could have taken in person, whether it be the friend that seems like they have it ALL together…

We all are attracted to the ultimate “if only’s” in life. If only I looked like that. If only I had that job. If only I were that outgoing ALL the time. If only I were that perfect. Every time we allow ourselves to think like this, we are bashing who we are in the worst way possible, and truthfully…undermining all the good parts about us as humans.

The truth is, the same people you may be comparing yourself to in everyday life could just as well be comparing themselves to you, just in different ways.

When have we become so harsh on ourselves that we create an observational task force on what features look better on others, than the ones we own? Or the aspects of our life that seem to be less than ideal, compared to the ideal in other people’s lives?

We are not continually in competition with our fellow man.

Believing we are in constant competition will most definitely have detrimental consequences to our own personal growth. Or at least our CONTENTMENT with our own personal growth.

Viewing life as one big competition is a mistake that threatens to take away all the potential encouragement and genuine happiness we could be feeling for others when they succeed!

All of us humans, are at different stages in growth and development. When you hit a certain age, usually many of your friends are at different stages in life. So, don’t beat up on yourself for not being at a certain stage yet, or not feeling you “have it all together” right now. Seriously, who DOES have it all together right away? We learn as we live.

When you remind yourself that you are not in competition with every person that comes along, you give yourself room to SUPPORT others! Be encouraging of others! Love others! It’s extremely freeing to realize this.  This struck me even more, when just the other day a friend was telling me about something new and important going on in their lives, and I got so overwhelmingly and genuinely excited for them!

They told me, “I’m so glad I could tell you and you’re excited about this! Because I told someone else and they weren’t excited. Actually, I think they were jealous.”

I thought, wow. I’m so glad I could be supportive of this friend. What IF I would’ve let the comparison game dominate? That would’ve been an awful mistake. Because the way I reacted is exactly how I would want my friends to react to excited news I would share with them! Support your friends. Be happy for them. Don’t compare. Don’t compete. (And trust me, this is coming from an athlete. You know how hard not competing is for me sometimes)!

Comparison Kills Contentment 

This was told to me by one of my favorite middle school teachers. Comparison kills contentment. I’ve carried that with me ever since then, and it has become so much more prevalent when I realized just how true it is through everyday life. Keep this knowledge with you and pull this saying out from the corners of your mind whenever you need that reminder.

Don’t ever allow yourself to feel inferior by the good qualities another soul possesses. The good qualities in another does not equal the lack of good qualities in yourself.

You yourself have a billion gifts and good qualities about you. Many you’ve yet to learn about! So, please, take the time to hone them, focus on your growth, and embrace all the unique aspects that make up yourself as a person.

There are indeed forms of healthy comparison.

Have mentors and role models before you, that exemplify a life worth living. There are indeed healthy reminders of how to live life. So, follow those healthy reminders wholeheartedly, because your life is a life worth living well.

So, how should we go forward and conquer UNHEALTHY comparison once and for all?

By following these steps every time the comparison bug starts to rear its head.

Remember to…

Acknowledge we are not in constant competition with our fellow man.

Acknowledge that we are on a unique journey and timeline of life, all our own.

Acknowledge comparison, more often than not, kills valuable contentment in our own personal growth.

Acknowledge that the existent of good qualities in another person does not equate the lack of good qualities in yourself.

I hope you can carry these lessons with you, as I try to carry them with me, as well.

A lot of times a writer writes something important like this, they are writing from experience, and they are also writing to remind themselves. So, you are not alone in this journey called life!

I wish you all the best and that you live a life content in the progress you are making.

Until next time,

Hannah

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If You’re Passing through the Waters…

I don’t know why I had the urge to write this tonight. It kind of washed over me, like something I knew I had to do. I mean- I haven’t written a blog post in months, but tonight…it’s something I’m doing.

I hope this blog post meets you right where you’re at. Maybe you’re feeling great- I’m glad! Maybe you’re not feeling anything in particular. Maybe you’re feeling the whole world crash around you, and you don’t know why…or you know exactly why.

The thing is, I don’t know you’re situation. All I know is that when we go through heartbreaking moments, moments when we have little to no peace, moments when we are being challenged in all we are and all we stand for, we often feel like the pain will never end, that we’ll just be stuck in it forever. We feel like we are alone in our suffering, and that no one understands. How wrong we are, my friend.

The truth is, there are many of us who feel the same way, we just never speak up. We feel that people won’t look at us the same way when they see us in our struggling moments. Maybe that is the case, but I want to tell you something…nothing in your life happens on accident. I don’t know your worldview, what you believe, what you put your hope in. But I trust that God has an infinitely bigger plan for you than you do yourself right now.

And because nothing happens on accident, as I stated earlier…your story, however unique and tough that may be, was meant to happen just the way it did. Maybe to grow you as an individual, maybe so that you can be challenged in your beliefs, maybe so you can use your pain and lessons to help other people who are going through similar, maybe we won’t completely know why! But-we can take comfort that nothing is going to go to waste!

These waves that are tossing you about tonight, they aren’t meant to drown you, my friend. They’re meant to make you a better swimmer.

So, no. You aren’t alone tonight if you feel like you’re barely getting by. You’re not alone in all those tough moments that no one else sees, and all the pain no one else knows you endure. You’re only being made stronger by the trials that you are going through, and while each wave takes us, we can have full confidence that we will be growing through it all.

Isaiah 43:1-2 says,

“…Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
    and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
    and the flame shall not consume you.”

When we place our trust not in ourselves, but onto the God who formed us and takes care of us, we are made that much stronger by His power. The chains that once kept us from being free are released, and we can live happier, more joyful lives, trusting the Lord with all our cares. He promises you won’t drown. He will lift you up through it all.

Your trusty blogger (who seriously needs to find time to blog more),

Hannah

Reminders for the Valentine-less

Hey, you. Yes. I’m indeed talking to you. The poor sap hugging that greasy Taco Bell bag, while scrolling pathetically through all those cute couples’ Valentine’s Day pictures on Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, (whatever your form of torture may be)…

This post is for you, my friend.

To all my fellow Valentine-less people out there: I know you’ve probably gone the majority of the day thinking you’re a complete loser that’s never going to find someone (especially since I only just got around to posting this little piece of insight at 10 o’clock at night)….but hey. At least you’re going to be able to see this eventually.  And at least we’ll all gain some insight on what could have been a pretty discouraging day, overall.

Now…first thing we have in common? We are single on a day society particularly likes throwing it in our faces. But let’s not be bitter, shall we? Valentine’s Day is actually a very good thing, it just takes some patience, perspective, and survival skills that rival MacGyver’s. No biggie, right?!

Wrong.

But, look at it this way- all that doesn’t have to be a bad thing! As a kid at school said today, “Valentine’s Day is Independence Day for a single person!” Of course, we all thought it was a corny joke at the time, but ya know. I’m rolling with it.

So, to ease your pain a bit, let’s go over some of the very important and helpful reasons why it might actually be kinda sorta good thing that you’re still as single as a Pringle on Valentine’s Day this year! *insert timely cringe at my own jokes*

The Economic Benefits

Well, for starters, you didn’t have to go buy anyone chocolates today, now did you? So, yayy! You aren’t even more broke than you were before! God’s had mercy on you and especially on your wallet. Looks like you won’t have to resort to the life of a hobo just yet!

Less Stress

It’s funny…life is a lot less complicated when you only have to worry about yourself and your twelve cats.

But- joking aside, it is true. Some people go for years and years from person to person, not truly knowing who they are without someone else. I’m grateful that I have this time just for me, myself, and I to figure out who I am and what I need in someone else. Truth is, you’re just learning how to make it on your own. It’s a life skill that’ll always come in handy. Another reason why you should never down yourself for being single: you don’t need someone else to make you happy. If you think that way, you’ll be on a constant emotional roller coaster.

Cultivating Friendships

You won’t have the temptation to overlook all your friends for your significant other, which is something I see all too much.

Actually, this will cultivate friendships and you will have even more time for friends and family, which is always a good thing, as long as you pick the right people to spend your time with.

Pursuit of Dreams/ Less Distraction

And now that you have more time on your hands, what’s holding you back on that dream of yours? Time management is everything and positive thinking doesn’t hurt, either. Focus all that extra attention on what will take you far in life. So what if that person you were talking to probably doesn’t like you back? You’re stronger than letting that get to you and you’ll turn it into a great thing.

Ultimately, this could mean less distraction for schooling, for work, for life in general.

And…Last but Not Least! Preparation for Your Significant Other

Having that wait and anticipation for the perfect guy or girl to come into your life will make it that much more meaningful. Look at all the reasons I stated before…ALL of that is preparing you for that one person that’s going to turn your life upside down, in a good way.

So, don’t ever beat yourself up about being single. Even on Valentine’s Day. It stinks, but just remember- you never know who’s going to walk into your life, so be patient, and always remember to have a sense of humor about it!

Welp, folks. That’s about all the Valentine’s Day talk I can take for today! Thanks for reading and make sure to like, follow, comment, whatever you all feel like doing.

Your trusty blogger,

Hannah

The Post that Started it All (Celebrating Wordsmith Observation’s One Year Anniversary!)

Well, folks. I see you’re still here one year later listening to my rambling “entertainingness” as described in my “About” page. I applaud you for sticking around for all the fun. I feel like you guys deserve a reward or something… so I’ll just give you a compliment and say that if this blog was a plane, you’d be sitting in the VIP section. What can I say? You’re just that special.

Well, now that you are comfortably lounging in your metaphorical VIP seating, I will go a bit more in-depth with this post. A few weeks ago, I got a notification on WordPress saying, “Eyyy, bro! You’re blog is having its first b-day! Congrats. You da bomb.” I mean, more or less that’s what they said. WordPress and I are super tight.

Okay, truthfully, I wasn’t even really planning on doing anything for a one-year celebration, but last minute, (*ahem* five minutes ago) I decided to  bring my blog back to its roots by displaying to my faithful readers the post that started it all. It’s kinda fun looking back on it, actually. So, why not? Let’s dive in.

 

A New School, Plus Chocolate Chip Cookies

 

“My dad founded a school for orphaned and vulnerable children.

Oh, I know what you guys are thinking, but sorry to burst anyone’s bubble… no super-human qualities in sight. Oh, I know. Very disappointing!

But, just hold up a second. We’ll get back to my dad’s lack of spidey senses in a minute. Right now I want to talk to you about something else…

Somehow, in this day and age, people think that being realistic is the absolute bomb. When really, it just blows up in their faces. See what I did there? Hahaha, so punny! I crack myself up.

Well, what these “realists” are preaching is that they’re the sensible ones. Let’s be real, though, do you think that if Abraham Lincoln, that grew up in a cramped little cabin in the middle of Tim Buck Three, had restricted himself to what was realistic, would he currently be a huge statue in Washington, D.C.? Or on that mountain called RUSHMORE? Don’t think so. Instead of being like, “Don’t dream, you get hurt.” He’s like, “Let’s rise up from this pit to be the best human being alive…plus, let’s throw honesty into the mix. Why not? Sounds good.”

But if you do take my advice to be like Lincoln, which you totally should, don’t get shot at a theater. Stay away from theaters. Just opt for Redbox. It’s cheaper, anyway.

Now, some people doubted the opening of this school. Some think, or even communicated, “Oh, that’s nice, but people don’t just open up schools.” In two years my dad’s aspirations of Providence Christian Academy became a reality. You’ve got to realize that with hard work the things that you thought you could never do, could only be a decision away.

So if your dream in life is that you want that last chocolate chip cookie in the cookie jar, and it’s gone when you go out to the kitchen…there may be some complications, but don’t immediately give up. You’ll get the cookie eventually. Don’t let anything get in the way of that cookie! If you’re out of chocolate chips, go to the store. If your siblings keep stealing the cookies, slap them. (JUST KIDDING! Don’t, I repeat, DON’T slap them). If you can’t bake whatsoever, make someone else bake them for you.

See, there’s always a way to your goals. You know, unless your goal is something physically impossible like, “when I grow up, I want to be a chicken!” Sorry to break it to you, but no amount of hard work will ever make you a chicken.

In essence, if you’re a person being restricted by the realists or the pessimists, don’t fall for their negativity. Being a realist is just a nice way of calling yourself a pessimist. Of course, you need to be REALISTIC about certain things, it’s called common sense. Because no amount of positivity will save you if you scream, “I can fly!” and jump off a cliff.

What I’m saying is the truth…you should never limit yourself, or box yourself in by society’s standards. For example, society says all teenagers are incompetent fools who don’t have enough sense in their bodies to do anything impressive. What they don’t realize is that before World War II there wasn’t any such term as “teenager”. You were either an adult, or you weren’t, which forced kids to grow and take on maturity.

“Teenagers” are the product of this society. Kids see how teens act and naturally think, “Oh, I can just do nothing whatsoever and goof off for six years.” Trust me, I remember being a little kid. All we thought about was growing up or what we’ll be like when we’re teenagers. When they see the big kids acting this way, it suddenly seems fine to follow. It’s just the cultural norm. Then the circle of immaturity continues,  especially when some continue in their childish ways into adulthood.

Of course, going against the grain will be very tough. For everyone, not just teens. People may call you a little naive, or maybe a dreamer for not being satisfied with mediocrity. Come on, though, it’ll be so worth it in the end. Even if you don’t get that chocolate chip cookie, you’ve grown from the experience.

All in all, don’t worry. You definitely don’t have to go the journey alone. Do you think a school came to be without LOADS of amazing, wonderful, and encouraging people (plus God!) working toward this end goal? Nope! Our family has had tons of friends, family, and random donators that have helped this mission, and honestly, it wouldn’t be the same without those people. I’m looking at you, Barb Clark (the wonder librarian…and music teacher, and secretary some days), Mrs. Nancy Peckman (my former second grade teacher that is a legend in the classroom), Mrs. Hussack (my mentor and another magnificent teacher for kids who have special needs), Mrs. Fitzpatrick (our art teacher that made the RENAISSANCE interesting to us), and Mrs. Bookamer (our wonderful secretary that comes in few days a week to help us, she does a fantabulous job!) thank you to all you wonderful  human beings.

Man, it was such a bad choice to start listing people. I can’t possibly list everyone! So, thank you, EVERYONE that has played a part. Grace Baptist Church, you’ve played a huge part, as well.

So the ultimate lesson here is to never let people step on your fire; instead, blaze your own trail. But, really, don’t give up on those chocolate chip cookies. They’re worth it.

…Dang it. Now I want cookies.

Your trusty unorganized blogger signing off! (Because I’ve written entirely too much, sorry not sorry.)

Hannah ”

Yaaay! Guys! Thanks so much for reading and celebrating this exciting 1-year mark with me.

Stick around. We’ve got a lot more fun left to go!

Until next time,

Hannah

(My First) Sunshine Blogger Award

Ever heard of “cause and effect” ? Well, to catch you up to date- I’ve been going through a little of that lovely philosophy, as of lately. The cause? Junior year has come in full-swing. The effect? School is preventing much time for me to blog and read other people’s lovely pieces. I’m not very pleased that it’s taken this much time for me to write another piece, considering I set my hopes on writing posts much more frequently, but life gets busy, and that’s okay.

So, I figure the best thing I can do right now to let you know that I’m still on this big blue and green blob of a planet is by writing an acceptance to MY FIRST EVER Sunshine Blogger Award! I’m always so excited to get one of these awards, and this is not an exception. I mean, it takes me like two months to get around to writing these things, but, trust me…I’m excited when I get them!

First off, I want to give a special thanks to Alex (from: https://lordofthetrekkies.wordpress.com/ ) ! She gave some pretty fun and unique questions that I’ll have to answer later on.

Before I get further into the award, I’ll list the rules of the award, for those I decide to nominate

  1. Post the award on your blog
  2. Acknowledge the blogger that nominated you
  3. Answer 11 questions that have been assigned to you
  4. Nominate 11 deserving bloggers for the award
  5. Ask 11 questions to your nominees

The Sunshine Blogger Award is an award designated to those you feel bring sunshine into your life and the lives of others by blogging.

Now, without further ado, let’s get into these questions!

What is one book that changed the way you think?

I’d say that the book “Black like Me” by John Howard Griffin did a great job of really opening my eyes to the struggles of the black people living in the south in the 1950s and 60s, and what true progress we’ve made from that time. We never are really taught what big leaps and bounds we’ve made in modern society because history classes are very often just focusing on long ago past. This book did a great job of laying out before its readers the raw and extreme hardships that these everyday people were faced with in the deep South. I never knew it was still that bad back then until I took the time to read books such as these when older.

Do you believe in aliens? Why or why not?

Haha, no, I do not believe in aliens. I feel that if there were any extreme life on any other planet near us we would most likely know by now. We are barely able to find any traces of water these planets, so I highly doubt that aliens exist. Now, I could see maybe a few plants or things such as that, but not a full-fledged creature.

What is the worst ever book you’ve read?

Oh, gosh. So many. And a lot of them were mandatory readings assignments from school, growing up. One of them particularly was assigned in seventh or eighth grade named The Summer of My German Soldier about this twelve-year-old Jewish girl and this almost-romance with a Nazi German soldier that was grossly too old for her. His age was 18-22? Somewhere around there. This book also went on about her abusive relationship with her father. I was not very impressed and was thoroughly confused by the end.

What would be your dream career?

Ever since I was a kid I’ve dreamt of becoming a real author, so that is definitely a written- in-stone dream of mine that I would love to fulfill by the end of my life. I was tossing around the idea of being an adoption lawyer as a main career and doing writing on the side, but I just stopped and thought to myself- why would I want to do that full-time, when I could possibly follow in the path to writing full-time, something I love even more?

Writing is my thing, and I’m under the conviction that I should at least try to see if I could make it a full-time career. I would want a job on the side, as well, so I could support myself as I’m starting out. But, I believe all good things come to those who work for it.

Another thing I am hoping to do is, after high school, is travel writing. I think it would be a good way to grow and see the world. Traveling is something I’ve always wanted to do, seeing as I have grown up in a small town my whole life.

What is your opinion on house cats?

I feel the laziness is excessive. No wonder you’re a big ball of pudge, Fluffy!

Why did you start blogging?

I guess I just started as another outlet for my writing. It’s a good way to share a little of my passion with others!

If you could travel anywhere, real or fake, where would it be?

I think that I’d love to visit some of the best art galleries in Europe. I would love to take it all in, and admire the beauty. But somewhere specific? Probably Venice, Italy. For many reasons!

Are you allergic to something? If so, can you tell us what it is?

Not anything that I’m aware of, except for maybe POLLEN. I just know that when that pollen count is up, I’m a wreck.

Have you ever went on a trip outside the country? Where did you go?

I’ve never gone anywhere outside the country. Although, when I’m old enough I want to pursue travel writing, because traveling is another important factor for me.

What is the biggest book you own? Can you take a picture?

The absolute biggest book we own has to be this ANCIENT dusty old Bible that we’ve somehow gotten a hold of. It dates back to the 1890s and the thing is ginormous. I don’t think I’ve seen anything bigger than that!

What’s your favorite kind of coffee?

Two words. ICED. COFFEE. (But, more specifically, French Vanilla iced coffee).

Here are my eleven questions for the folks I nominate next:

What is your favorite work of art? It can be any art form: painting, written word, etc… Why do you think it has affected you so much?

What do you think is the most important thing in life?

What are three of your most recent favorite music albums? Who sang them?

Is there something you’re really looking forward to in the next year?

If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?

What is one thing you would never change about yourself even if you were given a million dollars?

If you would ever write a book, what would it be about?

If you could turn into a completely different person for a day, what would you want to be? (Example…pro soccer player, seamstress, etc…) Why?

What do you want to accomplish in your young life? Any new years resolutions you’d want to fulfill if you knew 100% that you’d do it?

Find a quote that describes you to a tee.

If you could recommend one book for me to read right now, what would it be? Why?

And PLEASE- I will not stress this enough- when you are done with these, do not forget to tell me you are done! No matter if you make it three months later or an hour later. I thoroughly enjoy seeing all you guys’ answers to stuff!

I guess it’s time  to nominate some of you for the award! I will do as many as I feel, because eleven new nominations are sometimes hard to come by. I’ll only choose those who I feel really bring sunshine to the blogging community, so if I nominate you, you should feel that much more special 😉

https://bayart.org/blog/    – I’ve found this blog a few months ago and I absolutely love her latest idea of submitting a random act of kindness per day, to take a step back to tell yourself “hey, you’re on the right track” and to encourage you to keep making a difference. Keep up the positivity!

https://prayersandpiazzas.com/   – Okay, this blog has got it all! If you are at all interested in history, travel, everyday observational posts: go follow this chick. She’s got GREAT content and her photography is kinda sorta AMAZING. Whenever I get the chance, I love to read of her most recent adventures. It’s the kind of blog I’d want my blog to evolve into when I’m older and get out into the world (a whole lot of travel, adventure, and insight). Keep up the great work! Thanks for bringing the sunshine 🙂

https://marymacandcheese.wordpress.com/   – I look around your blog and what I take from it is that you have such a positive air to yourself and your writing! I like how you incorporate a little of your personality into some posts. I am a big supporter of writers incorporating themselves into their writing and I think that you have the start to a great thing coming. Keep up the great work with culminating and adding your special touch to writing! You’re doing great!

https://jorobinblog.wordpress.com/   – I found this blog, I think, about a month ago and I really like the issues she brings up in her blog. She confronts common issues that crop up in life and she presents it in a way that shows good insight to how we can approach these things. Thanks for your great work, and continue to do what you’re doing!

https://infinitebelly.com/   – Okay, it doesn’t take much to understand why I’m nominating this blog for the Sunshine Blogger Award. The first time I went to the blog, I was astounded at the beautiful photography and the DELICIOUS LOOKING FOOD! I mean, it’s got everything, really. Great writing & amazing food. You can’t beat it. So, Infinite Belly, keep it up on this cool endeavor! There are many that appreciate your spectacular blog. I’m just one of them.

Alright, everyone. I’m going to leave it at that! I will try my hardest to find even more blogs to nominate the next time. Things have just been so hectic that I haven’t had time to explore more blogs than I already have.

Again, thanks so much for the nomination! I appreciate every one of you that take your time reading my posts and caring about my writing (something that makes my heart happy).

As always, have a lovely day, and I will try to post again very shortly.

Your trusty blogger signing out,

Hannah

Junior Year & Growing Pains

Well, I’m here to break the news to everyone.

Five days ago, officially, I became a big bad junior in high school. Approximately one year until senior year, about ten giant leaps closer to graduation. So, yes, you’ve heard right. Hannah is growing up.

Wait! What are you doing?

Oh, come on! Pull it together, man! There’s no crying in blogging!

The truth is, it hadn’t even sunk into me until the first week of school that I, indeed, was finally one of those “big kids” that I always wanted to be more like. In second grade I remember my best friend Brooke and I always looking at the juniors and seniors, planning and imagining what we’d be like when we were finally “grown up” and about to go to college like them.

Now, instead of playing pretend we’re actually getting dangerously close to being on our own. Weird, huh? The days feel like years and the years are feeling like days.

So…my mom and I were going school shopping last week, just a girl’s night for her and I. Notebooks, binders, pens, highlighters, and the likes…nothing exciting, but just going out and shopping together, having fun.

We were walking through the busy aisles and talking and laughing as we are accustomed to doing. She stops in her tracks in front of the food department and smiles a sad little smile at me.

“This is one of the last times I’m going to go school shopping with my baby.”

I smile back at her and wave off the comment. “Hey, maybe not! I’d have seven more years of this if I go to law school.”

She laughs, and we continue on the long voyage through the seemingly endless aisles of Walmart. Eventually, we check out with about our cart filled to the brim with school supplies.

And trust me, when I tell you this, guys…if there were ever a paper shortage on earth, just holla at me and I’ll send a notebook your way. When notebooks are 17 cents, we’re going to take advantage of it.

But, after the school supply fiasco, my mom and I still hadn’t eaten (at almost 9), so we decided to make a late night Wendy’s stop. We went inside, laughed, ate, talked, all as my mother tried her best to embarrass me by singing to the oldies on the overhead radio, but she didn’t embarrass me! (Mostly, because practically no one was there, but still…that’s progress!)

I knew at that very moment, this was a time that I’d remember for the rest of my life. Being with my mom, one of my very best friends (and sometimes, arch nemesis), and just having her be there for me. I know I’m lucky in that aspect. I have both my parents and they love me, no matter how much I resist them and would like my freedom at times, I know I would be lost without them.

So, on my first day as a junior, I could tell my mom was a little off. Being a mother is a tough deal. You take care of someone for years and years and then you are expected to let go…just like that.

I guess this piece is mostly to reassure everyone (especially those moms out there) that if your kid is growing up, don’t be scared! Being a mom doesn’t end at a specific point. I’ll always need my mom, no matter how old I am. Her motherhood doesn’t have an expiration date.

So, Mom..(since I’m sure we all pretty much know that this was directed toward you), thanks for all you do for our family and all that you have done specifically for me. I really appreciate it. I’m feeling all that excitement and joy looking forward to the future and all there is to come! I know you are too 🙂

Hannah

The Indecisive Nature of Growing Up

Ultimately, nothing is written in stone. No matter how much we believe otherwise, one little change of plans and we are right back to square one. Things change, people change, everything changes. We all grow.

I’ve noticed this a lot growing up; your childhood and teen years are one phase after another. One day you want to be a vet, one day you want to be a teacher, one day you want to achieve world domination, owning all the T.J Maxx and Chick fil A’s of the world…oh, wait. Did I just say that out loud?

Anyway, all of us, at some point in life, are forced to choose a profession or line of work that we… hopefully (*fingers crossed*) will never get completely sick of. No pressure there, right? Well, that, my friends, is the point that I am at right now. Stuck in between childhood and adulthood, I am forced with some pretty big decisions. Time has flown and people that I have grown up with since childhood are starting to graduate high school. I find it hard sometimes to appreciate where I am at in life while I am so deeply aware of how close I am to being on my own.

I have my whole life ahead of me and that scares me, yet pushed me to unimaginable excitement and vision of living my purpose out in this world. Thinking of these things, as long as it is in a positive way, is something that I choose to follow out for my own good, because using these situations will push me further and further to the goals I have set for myself. That’s the only way to overcome doubt. So, where will Hannah Garner be in the future?

Only time will tell.