Growth, Trees, and..what? Patience??

Hey, you! Yeahh, you. The one with that weird haircut and your eyes glued to the screen. Gosh. You look like you haven’t gone outside in months. Well, good news, couch potato! I definitely haven’t forgotten about you..although I wouldn’t blame you if you’d forgotten ME, at this rate.. Completely going off the blogging grid after posting an entry about my hopeful “blog schedule”? Ironic for even me, but seriously..

These last few months have been a roller coaster of ups and downs, and making time to post was nearly impossible. But no fear. I’ve still been writing! You guys just haven’t seen any of it yet. So, buckle your seat belts, folks. The silence is over, thank gosh. It was driving me a little crazy knowing I haven’t posted in so long, when I know I have more meaningful content to write than ever before.

This was written two days ago in the morning, looking out on the wonderful landscape of my high school Providence Christian Academy’s campus.

“The trees are winding and twisting every which way. They grow however they grow, effortlessly. Without a care in the world, they trust the tale of time to show them who they’ll be.

Patience. The tree has patience like no other. It cannot see itself growing. Actually, to HIM it seems like he’s forever rooted in one place. With no change to come.

But slowly, it realizes that there is meaning to the life even the smallest and the lowest of us are granted. Just takes trust.”

dscn1964
These are some pictures I have taken at my high school’s campus last year, in the founding year of the school.

tree

But yes..I’m here to stay and have more content to come, including an entry of my relatively recent trip to New York City, around the time that the protests were going on.

In all the busy of these last few months, I’ve even gotten behind in reading what some of my favorite blogs have been posting! In the days and weeks and months to come, I will be working overtime. This isn’t something I’m going to give up on.

So, stick around for the ride..

Your lil ol’ blogger signing out,

Hannah

Advertisements

Wherefore Art Thou Blogging Schedule??

Wait a second. Is Hannah ACTUALLY being proactive and setting a schedule for her posts??

*Gasp* this has not happened in the history of EVER! How can this be??

Well, with the sarcasm out the way, the rumors that those pesky paparazzi spread (Gosh, they follow me EVERYWHERE) are true. I’ve chosen to force myself into finishing at least one post a week and publishing on Thursday. I love writing, and I love this sweet little Word Press community. It’s just been hard to finish things each week, but finish them I shall!

So, on every Thursday and any other day I randomly want to write an entry, you can be sure that it will be there for your little reader eyes to do their little reading thing.

Thanks for being such a dedicated little group of encouragers. You guys have been great.

Till next time (next Thursday)!

Hannah

First Entertainer Blogger Award Nomination, Say What??

Welp. I guess you’ve heard that the rumors are true. I’ve won a Nobel Peace Prize…

Oh, wait. Ahem. Excuse me. I’ve apparently misspoken. That won’t come for another two weeks, at least! What I really meant to say is that I’ve won the “Entertainer Blogger Award”. There we go. Can’t slur our words, now, can we?

So, yes, the Entertainer Blogger Award. There’s just something about this award that makes it my favorite out of all the others. And the fact that one of my favorite bloggers nominated me for this? Well, that just instantly made it EVEN MORE fantabulous. You like my new word there? I made it myself.

To start this award off I want to give a HUGE thank you to the lovely writer of “Dear Lily June”. I 100% recommend this blog to my  readers and give it a big whopping Hannah Stamp of Approval. That wasn’t really a thing until now, but now that it IS a thing, you should be completely amazed that she got that honor. Just saying.

You can find her here at ( https://dearlilyjune.wordpress.com/ ) You will not be disappointed. It’s filled to the brim with raw and beautifully written letters to her daughter Lily June. She gives her wisdom and experience for anything that life will bring Lily June’s way.

Well, I guess it’s time to list the rules of the award!

  • Write a post including the award picture.
  • Nominate 12 other bloggers who are funny, inspiring, and most importantly ENTERTAINING.
  • Add these rules to the post.
  • Thank the person who nominated you and leave the link to their blog!
  • Also, answer the questions down below.

These are the questions I have been asked:

1.) Why did you start to blog in the first place?

In the wise words of my “About” page, I shall answer this question.

“…you might want to know, “Why did you create this blog, Hannah?”

and I’d have to say, “Oh, that’s EASY. I created this blog to solve world hunger and win the Nobel Peace Prize, all by next Tuesday!”

And if you don’t believe THAT little trinket of knowledge, I’ll give you a second answer: I created this blog as another outlet to express myself through my writing. While being an author is my ultimate goal for the future, I am perfectly content at the moment using this blog to expressing my thoughts and opinions. We’ll see what happens from there!

2.) What is your favorite book?

I like all kinds of books. Although, I’ve been super into political/detective thrillers lately. It’s an exciting genre to read (and WRITE) !

3.) What do you hate the most?

When people think they have to be perfect to be of any importance *cough* *cough* me when I was younger *cough*

So, yeah. Embrace those flaws, people.

flaws.jpg

4.) What is your favorite food item from the mall?

SOFT PRETZELS FROM AUNTIE ANNE’S.

I’m convinced they are the cure to 99.9% of life’s ailments.

Okay, okay, okay. They cure hunger. That is all.

5.) What is your favorite past time activity?

I’m a firm believer that even whenever you’re not doing anything, you can at least be doing something. What does this mean? If I’m ever watching some pointless video on the internet or a movie on Netflix I’m either crocheting or drawing, as well.

Another thing? Duhh. Writing! Writing is a passion of mine so you can always expect me to be writing something, in one way or another.

Now, here’s the REAL hard part. Nominating all you entertainers out there deserving of this award! I may not nominate all 12 that it says to nominate, but I definitely will nominate a few new blogs that I have come across that I’m really taking a liking to.

( https://ysobelluna.wordpress.com/ ) Her beautiful photography and writings concerning her travels inspire and ignite the wanderlust inside. I just recently found her blog no more than a month ago and I’m already sooo in love with it. So, Ysobel, you’ve gained another dedicated reader, my friend.

( https://dineandrhymeblog.com/ ) This is such a cute little blog! I just LOVE the idea behind it- it is truly unique and she executes this with such skill (and great poetry)!! So, if you like food and if you like poetry, go check this out. It’s worth it!

Those will be all my nominees for now..Hopefully, I didn’t forget anyone. I didn’t want to nominate people that I have nominated before for an award, so I need to go explore and find some more awesome blogs to follow that are worthy of awards!

Till next time!

Hannah

The Post that Started it All (Celebrating Wordsmith Observation’s One Year Anniversary!)

Well, folks. I see you’re still here one year later listening to my rambling “entertainingness” as described in my “About” page. I applaud you for sticking around for all the fun. I feel like you guys deserve a reward or something… so I’ll just give you a compliment and say that if this blog was a plane, you’d be sitting in the VIP section. What can I say? You’re just that special.

Well, now that you are comfortably lounging in your metaphorical VIP seating, I will go a bit more in-depth with this post. A few weeks ago, I got a notification on WordPress saying, “Eyyy, bro! You’re blog is having its first b-day! Congrats. You da bomb.” I mean, more or less that’s what they said. WordPress and I are super tight.

Okay, truthfully, I wasn’t even really planning on doing anything for a one-year celebration, but last minute, (*ahem* five minutes ago) I decided to  bring my blog back to its roots by displaying to my faithful readers the post that started it all. It’s kinda fun looking back on it, actually. So, why not? Let’s dive in.

 

A New School, Plus Chocolate Chip Cookies

 

“My dad founded a school for orphaned and vulnerable children.

Oh, I know what you guys are thinking, but sorry to burst anyone’s bubble… no super-human qualities in sight. Oh, I know. Very disappointing!

But, just hold up a second. We’ll get back to my dad’s lack of spidey senses in a minute. Right now I want to talk to you about something else…

Somehow, in this day and age, people think that being realistic is the absolute bomb. When really, it just blows up in their faces. See what I did there? Hahaha, so punny! I crack myself up.

Well, what these “realists” are preaching is that they’re the sensible ones. Let’s be real, though, do you think that if Abraham Lincoln, that grew up in a cramped little cabin in the middle of Tim Buck Three, had restricted himself to what was realistic, would he currently be a huge statue in Washington, D.C.? Or on that mountain called RUSHMORE? Don’t think so. Instead of being like, “Don’t dream, you get hurt.” He’s like, “Let’s rise up from this pit to be the best human being alive…plus, let’s throw honesty into the mix. Why not? Sounds good.”

But if you do take my advice to be like Lincoln, which you totally should, don’t get shot at a theater. Stay away from theaters. Just opt for Redbox. It’s cheaper, anyway.

Now, some people doubted the opening of this school. Some think, or even communicated, “Oh, that’s nice, but people don’t just open up schools.” In two years my dad’s aspirations of Providence Christian Academy became a reality. You’ve got to realize that with hard work the things that you thought you could never do, could only be a decision away.

So if your dream in life is that you want that last chocolate chip cookie in the cookie jar, and it’s gone when you go out to the kitchen…there may be some complications, but don’t immediately give up. You’ll get the cookie eventually. Don’t let anything get in the way of that cookie! If you’re out of chocolate chips, go to the store. If your siblings keep stealing the cookies, slap them. (JUST KIDDING! Don’t, I repeat, DON’T slap them). If you can’t bake whatsoever, make someone else bake them for you.

See, there’s always a way to your goals. You know, unless your goal is something physically impossible like, “when I grow up, I want to be a chicken!” Sorry to break it to you, but no amount of hard work will ever make you a chicken.

In essence, if you’re a person being restricted by the realists or the pessimists, don’t fall for their negativity. Being a realist is just a nice way of calling yourself a pessimist. Of course, you need to be REALISTIC about certain things, it’s called common sense. Because no amount of positivity will save you if you scream, “I can fly!” and jump off a cliff.

What I’m saying is the truth…you should never limit yourself, or box yourself in by society’s standards. For example, society says all teenagers are incompetent fools who don’t have enough sense in their bodies to do anything impressive. What they don’t realize is that before World War II there wasn’t any such term as “teenager”. You were either an adult, or you weren’t, which forced kids to grow and take on maturity.

“Teenagers” are the product of this society. Kids see how teens act and naturally think, “Oh, I can just do nothing whatsoever and goof off for six years.” Trust me, I remember being a little kid. All we thought about was growing up or what we’ll be like when we’re teenagers. When they see the big kids acting this way, it suddenly seems fine to follow. It’s just the cultural norm. Then the circle of immaturity continues,  especially when some continue in their childish ways into adulthood.

Of course, going against the grain will be very tough. For everyone, not just teens. People may call you a little naive, or maybe a dreamer for not being satisfied with mediocrity. Come on, though, it’ll be so worth it in the end. Even if you don’t get that chocolate chip cookie, you’ve grown from the experience.

All in all, don’t worry. You definitely don’t have to go the journey alone. Do you think a school came to be without LOADS of amazing, wonderful, and encouraging people (plus God!) working toward this end goal? Nope! Our family has had tons of friends, family, and random donators that have helped this mission, and honestly, it wouldn’t be the same without those people. I’m looking at you, Barb Clark (the wonder librarian…and music teacher, and secretary some days), Mrs. Nancy Peckman (my former second grade teacher that is a legend in the classroom), Mrs. Hussack (my mentor and another magnificent teacher for kids who have special needs), Mrs. Fitzpatrick (our art teacher that made the RENAISSANCE interesting to us), and Mrs. Bookamer (our wonderful secretary that comes in few days a week to help us, she does a fantabulous job!) thank you to all you wonderful  human beings.

Man, it was such a bad choice to start listing people. I can’t possibly list everyone! So, thank you, EVERYONE that has played a part. Grace Baptist Church, you’ve played a huge part, as well.

So the ultimate lesson here is to never let people step on your fire; instead, blaze your own trail. But, really, don’t give up on those chocolate chip cookies. They’re worth it.

…Dang it. Now I want cookies.

Your trusty unorganized blogger signing off! (Because I’ve written entirely too much, sorry not sorry.)

Hannah ”

Yaaay! Guys! Thanks so much for reading and celebrating this exciting 1-year mark with me.

Stick around. We’ve got a lot more fun left to go!

Until next time,

Hannah

Hoodies, Apple Cider, and Campfires Galore (A Welcoming to Fall)

“And the sun took a step back, the leaves lulled themselves to sleep and Autumn was awakened.”

Raquel Franco

It’s no surprise that I’m just a little bit happy completely PSYCHED for fall, and seeing as how last week was officially the first day of this lovely season, it’s only appropriate to have an appreciation post, no?

But first, Imma be real with you. Fall hasn’t always had the same attraction to me as it does now. Actually, I never really had much of an opinion on the season until I had gotten older. I’m an only child (except for an adoptive brother that moved out very early in my life) so fall wasn’t highlighted by stories of raking leaves and jumping in with all 11 of my siblings. It was more or less just cold weather and pumpkins…and lots of em.

However, over the years, by and by, I’ve developed a real and deep appreciation for fall in all its glory. It’s easy to say I’ve slowly fallen in love with everything it has to offer. I love the crisp leaves that rustle underneath my shoes as I walk, I love the rich splendor and color that meet my eyes as I walk outdoors, I love how nature falls in the most beautiful way possible during this time and I’m left in awe.

There is so much to be happy about if you take the time to appreciate the little things. There’s fresh apple cider during a good barn party, the pies that you and your friends will make together, the sports game you will watch in the evenings while bundled up in a fuzzy blanket to lessen the cold, and it just seems like the world starts to slow down for a bit, even if for the slightest amount of time, in the fall. You get to appreciate aspects of life a lot more.

Let’s go ahead and list a few more of my favorite parts of fall that we can look forward to in the up and coming months.

Ahem..

#1 – Thanksgiving (I live in the United States)

For real, though, do I even really have to elaborate on this one?? Just the thought of Thanksgiving is making my mouth water. Pies, stuffing, casseroles, yeah. You get the picture. It’s one big fiasco of good eating, especially in my family, that has country roots. I’m convinced that growing up in the country helps homemaking skills.

#2 – Chilly Weather!

Alright. You can stop giving me that look. I’m feeling the judgment radiating through the screen before I even publish this! I know that chilly weather isn’t always that much fun at the time, but compared to our summer scorch fests, I’d take a fuzzy scarf and beanie any day over slowly boiling in Vitamin D, thank you very much.

#3 – Scented Candles

I’m sincerely sorry. I’m going to give the common girl answer (don’t worry, there will be more of those to come!) and say scented candles. Because, really, who can’t resist the smell of sugar cookies and pumpkin pie wafting from a melted wax? Name the person, and I will be shocked.

#4 – Cappuccinos

See? I warned you. We’ve got another cliche answer on our hands, ladies and gents. You know what, though? I’m going to own it and wear this cliche answer with pride. Cappuccinos in the fall time = the perfect combination. The cold weather mixed with a good steaming cup of joe is the BEST way to start the day off right.

#5 –  Campfires

Fall is one of the best times of the year to do campfires with friends and family. Why? Well, my friends, I’ll tell you…by fall, all the evil little mutant bugs that enjoy making our lives miserable will be dying off *YAY* and bug bites become much less common. This makes for a much happier Hannah when it comes time to gather round the fire and tell scary stories.

#6 – MY BIRTHDAY!

Eyyy, well lookie there. My birthday is in fall, too! And if that’s not a reason to like fall at least a little more, I don’t know what is!

#7 – The Beautiful Foliage

As I said before, nature is at one of its most beautiful parts of Autumn. Photography will be a cinch since everywhere you look the world will be your own personal canvas of color to capture.

Well, it’s ten o’clock at night as I am writing this, and I think I’ve officially finished up with my little nod toward fall. I know this isn’t what I normally write (I normally don’t write in list format)…only if it’s an award post, but trust me, I’m getting used to junior year’s work and am starting to have much more time for blogging. So, hold on to your seats, folks! There will be more material to come very soon

What are some of YOUR favorite parts of Autumn? List them all down in the comment box! I would be curious to see everything!

In conclusion, thank you sticking around to read through this lil’ ol’ welcoming to fall. I wish you all a very lovely day and a HUNDRED cappuccinos and bonfires in your near future!

What?! It’s the best blessing I could fathom.

Until next time,

Hannah

 

 

(My First) Sunshine Blogger Award

Ever heard of “cause and effect” ? Well, to catch you up to date- I’ve been going through a little of that lovely philosophy, as of lately. The cause? Junior year has come in full-swing. The effect? School is preventing much time for me to blog and read other people’s lovely pieces. I’m not very pleased that it’s taken this much time for me to write another piece, considering I set my hopes on writing posts much more frequently, but life gets busy, and that’s okay.

So, I figure the best thing I can do right now to let you know that I’m still on this big blue and green blob of a planet is by writing an acceptance to MY FIRST EVER Sunshine Blogger Award! I’m always so excited to get one of these awards, and this is not an exception. I mean, it takes me like two months to get around to writing these things, but, trust me…I’m excited when I get them!

First off, I want to give a special thanks to Alex (from: https://lordofthetrekkies.wordpress.com/ ) ! She gave some pretty fun and unique questions that I’ll have to answer later on.

Before I get further into the award, I’ll list the rules of the award, for those I decide to nominate

  1. Post the award on your blog
  2. Acknowledge the blogger that nominated you
  3. Answer 11 questions that have been assigned to you
  4. Nominate 11 deserving bloggers for the award
  5. Ask 11 questions to your nominees

The Sunshine Blogger Award is an award designated to those you feel bring sunshine into your life and the lives of others by blogging.

Now, without further ado, let’s get into these questions!

What is one book that changed the way you think?

I’d say that the book “Black like Me” by John Howard Griffin did a great job of really opening my eyes to the struggles of the black people living in the south in the 1950s and 60s, and what true progress we’ve made from that time. We never are really taught what big leaps and bounds we’ve made in modern society because history classes are very often just focusing on long ago past. This book did a great job of laying out before its readers the raw and extreme hardships that these everyday people were faced with in the deep South. I never knew it was still that bad back then until I took the time to read books such as these when older.

Do you believe in aliens? Why or why not?

Haha, no, I do not believe in aliens. I feel that if there were any extreme life on any other planet near us we would most likely know by now. We are barely able to find any traces of water these planets, so I highly doubt that aliens exist. Now, I could see maybe a few plants or things such as that, but not a full-fledged creature.

What is the worst ever book you’ve read?

Oh, gosh. So many. And a lot of them were mandatory readings assignments from school, growing up. One of them particularly was assigned in seventh or eighth grade named The Summer of My German Soldier about this twelve-year-old Jewish girl and this almost-romance with a Nazi German soldier that was grossly too old for her. His age was 18-22? Somewhere around there. This book also went on about her abusive relationship with her father. I was not very impressed and was thoroughly confused by the end.

What would be your dream career?

Ever since I was a kid I’ve dreamt of becoming a real author, so that is definitely a written- in-stone dream of mine that I would love to fulfill by the end of my life. I was tossing around the idea of being an adoption lawyer as a main career and doing writing on the side, but I just stopped and thought to myself- why would I want to do that full-time, when I could possibly follow in the path to writing full-time, something I love even more?

Writing is my thing, and I’m under the conviction that I should at least try to see if I could make it a full-time career. I would want a job on the side, as well, so I could support myself as I’m starting out. But, I believe all good things come to those who work for it.

Another thing I am hoping to do is, after high school, is travel writing. I think it would be a good way to grow and see the world. Traveling is something I’ve always wanted to do, seeing as I have grown up in a small town my whole life.

What is your opinion on house cats?

I feel the laziness is excessive. No wonder you’re a big ball of pudge, Fluffy!

Why did you start blogging?

I guess I just started as another outlet for my writing. It’s a good way to share a little of my passion with others!

If you could travel anywhere, real or fake, where would it be?

I think that I’d love to visit some of the best art galleries in Europe. I would love to take it all in, and admire the beauty. But somewhere specific? Probably Venice, Italy. For many reasons!

Are you allergic to something? If so, can you tell us what it is?

Not anything that I’m aware of, except for maybe POLLEN. I just know that when that pollen count is up, I’m a wreck.

Have you ever went on a trip outside the country? Where did you go?

I’ve never gone anywhere outside the country. Although, when I’m old enough I want to pursue travel writing, because traveling is another important factor for me.

What is the biggest book you own? Can you take a picture?

The absolute biggest book we own has to be this ANCIENT dusty old Bible that we’ve somehow gotten a hold of. It dates back to the 1890s and the thing is ginormous. I don’t think I’ve seen anything bigger than that!

What’s your favorite kind of coffee?

Two words. ICED. COFFEE. (But, more specifically, French Vanilla iced coffee).

Here are my eleven questions for the folks I nominate next:

What is your favorite work of art? It can be any art form: painting, written word, etc… Why do you think it has affected you so much?

What do you think is the most important thing in life?

What are three of your most recent favorite music albums? Who sang them?

Is there something you’re really looking forward to in the next year?

If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?

What is one thing you would never change about yourself even if you were given a million dollars?

If you would ever write a book, what would it be about?

If you could turn into a completely different person for a day, what would you want to be? (Example…pro soccer player, seamstress, etc…) Why?

What do you want to accomplish in your young life? Any new years resolutions you’d want to fulfill if you knew 100% that you’d do it?

Find a quote that describes you to a tee.

If you could recommend one book for me to read right now, what would it be? Why?

And PLEASE- I will not stress this enough- when you are done with these, do not forget to tell me you are done! No matter if you make it three months later or an hour later. I thoroughly enjoy seeing all you guys’ answers to stuff!

I guess it’s time  to nominate some of you for the award! I will do as many as I feel, because eleven new nominations are sometimes hard to come by. I’ll only choose those who I feel really bring sunshine to the blogging community, so if I nominate you, you should feel that much more special 😉

https://bayart.org/blog/    – I’ve found this blog a few months ago and I absolutely love her latest idea of submitting a random act of kindness per day, to take a step back to tell yourself “hey, you’re on the right track” and to encourage you to keep making a difference. Keep up the positivity!

https://prayersandpiazzas.com/   – Okay, this blog has got it all! If you are at all interested in history, travel, everyday observational posts: go follow this chick. She’s got GREAT content and her photography is kinda sorta AMAZING. Whenever I get the chance, I love to read of her most recent adventures. It’s the kind of blog I’d want my blog to evolve into when I’m older and get out into the world (a whole lot of travel, adventure, and insight). Keep up the great work! Thanks for bringing the sunshine 🙂

https://marymacandcheese.wordpress.com/   – I look around your blog and what I take from it is that you have such a positive air to yourself and your writing! I like how you incorporate a little of your personality into some posts. I am a big supporter of writers incorporating themselves into their writing and I think that you have the start to a great thing coming. Keep up the great work with culminating and adding your special touch to writing! You’re doing great!

https://jorobinblog.wordpress.com/   – I found this blog, I think, about a month ago and I really like the issues she brings up in her blog. She confronts common issues that crop up in life and she presents it in a way that shows good insight to how we can approach these things. Thanks for your great work, and continue to do what you’re doing!

https://infinitebelly.com/   – Okay, it doesn’t take much to understand why I’m nominating this blog for the Sunshine Blogger Award. The first time I went to the blog, I was astounded at the beautiful photography and the DELICIOUS LOOKING FOOD! I mean, it’s got everything, really. Great writing & amazing food. You can’t beat it. So, Infinite Belly, keep it up on this cool endeavor! There are many that appreciate your spectacular blog. I’m just one of them.

Alright, everyone. I’m going to leave it at that! I will try my hardest to find even more blogs to nominate the next time. Things have just been so hectic that I haven’t had time to explore more blogs than I already have.

Again, thanks so much for the nomination! I appreciate every one of you that take your time reading my posts and caring about my writing (something that makes my heart happy).

As always, have a lovely day, and I will try to post again very shortly.

Your trusty blogger signing out,

Hannah

I Would’ve.

This Thursday (four days ago) was meant to be the day of my young writer’s conference in Philly.

The day before, I woke up, just like any other day, but I woke with the distinct knowledge that I would be traveling three hours away to attend this conference at a university filled with professional writers, publishers, editors, and the likes. There I would learn, socialize with other writers, and show my hard work to a real-life editor for review and discussion on how to move forward with this passion and career (*eek! Yes! Career!) of mine. That’s some pretty exciting things for a sixteen-year-old.

So, yeah. But, listen here. I’m warning you. Before you get too jazzed up about this writer’s conference deal…*ahem. You know when your teachers say, “Don’t procrastinate. You’re gonna die” and you’re like- “OKAY! I’m going to do this right away so I won’t die!” That was me….the first twenty-four hours of having the book.

But WOE IS ME! Hannah, what were you thinking??

You’re probably quite familiar with the cycle, as well. What cycle, you ask? The dreaded cycle of procrastination. You say to yourself, “Oh, golly gee! I have so much time to do this MANDATORY READING that I don’t have a care in the world as of now!” And there you go, skipping through a field of wildflowers, licking an over-sized lollipop while completely and utterly happy with your clear disillusionment to reality.

Fast forward to the last three/four days before the conference: Hmmm. We see a very stressed out sixteen-year-old girl wringing her hands in despair. Oh, goodness me! Whatever shall she do?!

Yeah. You get the picture. When I woke up Wednesday morning, I still had half the book left to read and a little more of my writings to jot down in my new fancy journal. By that time I was pretty stressed out. I hadn’t really been nervous at all about the conference the days before, just about the reading. I was so excited about everything other than that.

Because this a new chapter in life for me! Heh heh. Chapter. Get it?

Oh gosh. How do you people deal with me?

But really, I’m confident in my ideas and my writing. It was just the principle of it all. Not being finished with the reading, not being finished writing down the WRITING! I still hadn’t packed! So, of course, Wednesday morning I was completely stressing. How was I ever going to get things done in an orderly fashion? Plus, going three hours away to a place I’ve never been before, without knowing one single person in the university was not necessarily in my comfort zone. That just kinda added to everything.

After a few minutes wigging out, I tell my parents, “I’m not going. I can’t possibly get all this done.”

I justified it to myself by repeating these things in my head, You’ll go next year. By then, you’ll have more material to show and your ideas will be even better! You don’t want to go when you’re stressed, anyway. You don’t want to. 

I started believing it, too!

All in all, I was psyching myself out big time. I was feeling the pressure and I wanted to bail. In reality, I could get it done. I’ve been ready to meet with a professional in the writing business for a while now! I could do it!

What was I even thinking? Why was I limiting myself  because of a few little setbacks? I was going! I made up my mind right then and there. Because if you want to do anything worthwhile in life you have to jump in head first.

I marched up to my mother and I tell her, “I’m going.” I turned my mind around completely, doing a full 180 for the betterment of myself. I knew good and well how important this was to me.

She looks at me and says….

“Sorry, Hannah. We won’t be able to go this year.”

HA you should see the look on your face! Not the answer you were expecting, eh?

Well, as it turns out, our dog, Millie, a little four-year-old rat terrier miniature pinscher mix that has glaucoma in her eye wasn’t feeling particularly well. Her eye was being especially painful for her that morning and we didn’t feel comfortable leaving her for that long trip.

But you know what? I felt so much better knowing that I had the guts to put my foot down and set my mind to go on that trip. I wasn’t going, but having that determination made all the difference for me to still feel good about everything.

Like it says in the title, at least I knew I would’ve. I don’t want to make this into a preachy lesson or a cheesy little inspiration for you. I’m just putting it out there for the future, for me and for others to remember.

And guess where I’m going next August? You can bet I’m walking straight into that young writers’ conference in Philly to learn, grow, and thrive in the area that I love most.

Signing out,

Hannah

 

P.S. Please, do not hesitate to send in what makes you smile to wednesdaysmile@yahoo.com ! You can be featured on one of my posts. If you haven’t heard about this and want to learn more go to the blog entry before this.

https://wordsmithobservations.wordpress.com/2016/08/02/im-giving-you-a-challenge/